Sentiments Of a Forgotten Angel

Rhythm of the Rain

2008-03-04T15:58:00.001-08:00

CASCADES - RHYTHM OF THE RAIN

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain, please tell me now does that seem fair?
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my heart's somewhere far away

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we knew start to grow

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again
Oh listen to the falling rain

Ugh, I've been very busy with school stuff lately so I wasn't able to update my blog. Anyway, you surely wouldn't want to read my posts by that time since I was so depressed during the past two months (you know, about stuff...and happenings...and most especially about the prom.)

Okay, you probably would ask, "What's with the song?"

Well, the first time I heard this song, I didn't appreciated it that much. But when somebody, whom I really like right now, sang it in front of me (ehem, us, rather) I finally figured out the "beauty" of the song. Thanks to him. Ü

Ha-ha! I'm not really a fan of old songs, but there are certain old songs that can still make my heart melt everytime I hear them...Rhythm of the Rain is probably included in that list. Ü

"..The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain, please tell me now does that seem fair?
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my heart's somewhere far away.."

The Comeback

2007-12-26T16:50:00.005-08:00

Since my blog became sooooooooooooooo non-existent for the past two months, i owe you guys a mile-long post.

Let's start with..

November 7, 2oo7

MY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!

(i can't believe i wasn't able to make a post about this!)

...okay, i celebrated my birthday at a Jollibee branch in festival along with 6 ten-year old kids, 4 eight-year olds, and 5 six-year olds. Jollibee was present with Grimace but Hamburglar didn't make it to the party. We played longest chain, touch the dragon's tail, and bring me. I ended up crying because my playmates won't let me join them, saying i was too big to join the games.

SIYEMPRE JOKE LANG 'YON!!!...ASA NAMAN..

Back to reality (as if i dreamed about that..), i woke up around 5am and did my usual routine. And as usual, i didn't read the messages in my cellphone until i was already seated in our van. And the first one to greet me is..

*drumrolls*

Patrick (with a time record of 12:10 am)

*clap,clap,clap*

I arrived at school and was welcomed by warm greetings from my beloved classmates. (i so love you guys.^^,)

As for the gifts:

Alyzza gave me a bracelet (which i've always wanted..thanks! ^^,)

Joyce gave me The Click Five's newest album, Modern Minds and Pastimes!!!!!!!! (I was actually eyeing and drooling over this cd since the day we watched click five's concert in atc. THANKS A LOT! ^^,)

Norlan gave me a lollipop..(thanks dude! ^^,)

And also, thanks to III Faraday, who made an effort to sing me a birthday song. I.Was.Touched.

And as always, this day's a blast! I really love celebrating birthdays..too bad, birthday means aging. Can i just, you know, celebrate birthdays without growing old?..

just asking..

November 29, 2007

III-FEYNMAN WON BEST COSTUME IN THE SPEECH CHOIR COMPETITION AND DECLARED AS CHAMPION...OVERALL

(NO POST about this?! I'm such a loser!)

..and I REALLY AM PROUD OF IT!

After weeks of hardships and trials, we brought home the bacon, eggs, bread, cheese, cereals, milk, and jjamppong!

Yeah baby!

HAHAHAHAHAHA..!!

And again, i'm proud to say, i so love my section. I played a major role..(there were 8 of us, including Nicko.) I portrayed LUST..one of the seven deadly sins.

We had a jjamppong (the newly declared favorite food of Feynman) party in our classroom..or shall i say, THEY had a jjamppong party. Huhu..too bad, i wasn't able to join them because my uncle picked me up in school. (camp is cancelled due to Trillanes' stupid coup d’état.)

as for the video of our performance, i have a copy. Just approach me (approach=cry,beg,kneel,bleed..) and i'll hand it over to you. ^_^

wait, did i already say how much i love our section? ^_^

ooookay, i'll cut my post short. Too long posts might discourage the readers from reading them.

------------------------------------end of November--------------------------------------

Black and White Keys

2007-12-26T16:10:00.000-08:00

Black and White Keys
As I place my fingers on the keys,
I tried to keep my mind at ease.
With trembling hands I tried to play,
The music you and I used to share.

I close my eyes as I hear myself,
Playing the sweet tune that fills the air.
Though lachrymose as it seems to be,
I kept playing on, lost in reality.

For every note and every beat,
Makes me only reminisce.
Of a once great love story doomed to an early end,
A fairytale that never really had a happy ending.

Until the day that you left me,
I swore to myself never to play the piano again.
But here I am, touching the black and white keys,
Because from now and then on, it will only be the piano and me,

With or without you I’ll keep on playing,
With or without you the world will keep on turning.
Whatever happened in the past remains unspoken,
And forever will it be hidden in the notes of our music sheet.

..this was actually the poem i made during our English time wherein the topic is "the thing that inspires you the most." Out of all the poems i made, this is my favorite. Somebody asked me, "why the piano?"

And i just answered, "'coz i use to play it for someone who really inspires me...before."

"Before?"

"yeah,that someone left me just as i was about to finish playing our favorite song."

"So you never touched the piano again?"

"I just played it last week."

my BIG realization:

just because you lost your inspiration, doesn't mean you have to stop doing something you enjoy the most. Move on, you don't need a someone to make your life worth living especially if that someone will only be there for a short period of time. You can always look at yourself as an inspiration. And really, there is a BIG difference between playing the piano for an inspiration and playing the piano as an inspiration.

(hope you like the poem.^_^)

My Latest Addiction

2007-10-30T22:07:00.000-07:00

Ragnarök (n)

in Norse mythology, the final destruction of the gods in a great battle against the forces of evil, after which a new world will arise.

Valkyrie (n)

handmaid escorting dead to Valhalla: in Norse mythology, on of the twelve handmaids of Odin who ride their horses over the field of battle

I spent my first whole week playing Ragnarok, and only Raganrok alone. It became a lot better since it’s already for free. Yes, it’s F-R-E-E! Actually, the so-called BI Miguel was the one who informed me about it. I already experienced playing Ragnarok when I was in grade five, but I wasn’t able to continue it since it requires level-up cards to be able to play the game which can be bought for 20 pesos, 50 pesos, 100 pesos and so on (not to mention the internet card I still have to buy since it is an online game and we were only using dial-up at that time.)

At first, I was hesitant to play the game. But when Miguel told me that Alyzza is already playing that game, I decided to give Valkyrie (the free Ragnarok server) a try. When Alyzza arrived in school, I immediately approached her and asked if I can borrow the installer cd. Problem is, it was Patrick’s cd and I can’t, I won’t and I don’t want to ask permission from him. I mean, I’m in the process of pretending I don’t know him and then, here I am, asking permission if I can borrow his cd? Whoa, that doesn’t sound right, does it?

Luckily, Alyzza agreed to cover me up. She told Patrick that she forgot his cd at home and promised to bring it tomorrow. In short, I only have 24 hours to install it in our pc or else playing Ragnarok will forever be a dream.

I experienced a lot of obstacles, hindrances and flaws (like unable to Register, lost password, unregistered account even though I'm already registered, and the constant hanging of our computer everytime I try to play the game) before I had the chance to play the game. Maybe, these are the SIGNS. Evil Approaching! Hah! I was already on the verge of tears and losing hope when a miracle happened. It worked! I was finally able to play the game. Cheers! ^___^

Right now, I'm in Prontera and fighting Rockers. The usual "lag" of the game..boo! By the way, my character's a mage, only level 26 (wait 'til it gets 40! Ü) and her name's MuncHkinS_12.

So that's it for my not-so-productive sembreak. Alyzza, thank you so much! Miguel, you are a demon! A certified B.I.! haha, peace out. ^_^

ToOdLeS! ^__^

pahabol, nasabi ko na kay Patrick na hiniram ko sa kanya ung cd. Hindi naman siya nagalit. Tinanong niya lang bakit hindi daw ako nagpaalam.

My reply?

"Pake mo?!Ü Thanks anyway.Ü"

o_O

Best Sunday ever. Ü

2007-10-15T06:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the best Sunday ever!
Joyce, Lior and I watched Click Five’s concert in ATC. Ü
I’m ecstatic, overjoyed, euphoric, elated, I’m on cloud nine!!!
It’s the best..i mean the BEST concert I’ve ever watched in my entire life! (Well aside from the battle of the bands in which my cousins joined last year, well you cannot classify them as concerts, right?)

Omigod, omigod, OH.MY.GOD

Click Five is sooooooo cool!!!
I love the vocalist, Kyle Patrick! (Oh crap! Just disregard his last name, okay? T.T )
He’s talented, he’s handsome, he’s charismatic, he’s good in singing, he’s good in guitars, he’s cool, he’s kind (think so..Ü) He’s PERFECT!
I love him..I love him..I LOVE HIM!!

I’ll marry him if I can..hahahahahaha!!
He’s just the guy I’m looking for..Ü

But after the concert, things went back as they were before.
Back to reality. Yeah, reality sucks.

I went to school today, still in a state of euphoria.
Its like I’m drunk yet ecstatic. I even brought my camera so I can watch Click Five’s videos over and over again and look at Kyle’s pics anytime.Ü

Want a pic?

Cry me a river. Ü

my life as a student (part I)

2007-10-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

“Some things in this world don’t change..
Luckily, some things do..”
- Captain Niobe (Matrix)

I can still remember how frightened and anxious I was when I first stepped my foot in Munsci. It was my parents’ decision to take the entrance exam in this school and I was obliged to pass it. Besides, my sister passed the test and is currently in her junior year. If not for my friends, I would never enter this school.

I figured out that it’s really hard to make friends…especially to complete strangers. I was sure enough that I really looked stupid grinning at them and introducing myself. Luckily, Joyce, Tatum, and I belong to one section, Arrhenius. And that was the start of our freshmen year.

After a month or so, we were able to make a lot of friends (though we’re not sure who among them are true.). Assignments are starting to pile up and I’m trying to cope up with the difficult lessons the teachers are introducing to us. We’ve been very busy with practices, assignments, seatworks, quizzes, summatives, tests, rehearsals, contests, camps, you name them all. It was a fast track. My sister's right. A lot of courage, patience and strength is needed for you to survive in that school (more like a hell to me..=p).

But what makes freshmen year, the best year I’ve undergone so far?

Aside from the fact that our section is the coolest, naughtiest and definitely the most barbaric section (not to mention, the section with the dirtiest room..Ü) among all first years, we also experienced falling in love for the first time in our lives. And for me, this gave much excitement and color in my high school life. With all those dreams and promises vowed to each other, I felt like HE was the one I’ve been waiting for. HE was the one who’s really meant for me. And I must admit, I had the greatest time of my life when I’m with him. Though I shed a lot of tears because of arguments and misunderstandings, I never regretted it. I was happy. He was happy. We were both happy…and I’m contented in that.

..to be continued..

...

2007-09-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

I've been VERY busy this week so i wasn't able to update my blog. A lot of things happened actually, but due to hectic schedules and jingle rehearsals, i wasn't able to share it with you. It just so happens that we didn't have practice today so i immediately grabbed the chance to make a new post in my blog.

Events that happened or will happen this week (or maybe last week, can't remember.)

*drum rolls please...*

MSHS Chorale won 2nd runner-up in U.P. Musikapella last Sunday.

- A big round of applause for the choir! Though we heard some people at the back say "we don't even know you..." HAH! As if WE know YOU!!! As for us, we already made a name last Sunday..too bad, YOUR school remains UNKNOWN..hahahahaha!!!

Science Jingle Practices

- This is the most challenging and most tiring of all. Just last week, we composed songs about science clubbing (theme is, science clubbing towards a more science-conscious citizenry.) and made various dance steps. It was hard. With all the lessons we still have to study at home and tons of homeworks, we really had a hard time scheduling practices for the jingle. We just hope we'll win this contest in Friday. T.T

Open-forum (exclusive for Feynman students only)

- This proved to be veeeeeeeeeeeeeery dramatic. I didn't expect that some of the boys will cry during the open-forum. I also cried. But after that, things went pretty well. I can say that we already created a friendship worth keeping. Ü

I slashed my wrists

- Don't ask me why. I'm depressed. And I didn't slashed my wrists just to get other people's attention. I'm not that STUPID. For those who wonder WHY i did it, well, here's my side.

Ever felt like you're crushed, emotionally and mentally? Like everything inside you hurts so badly and you can't do anything to make the pain go away? Worse, you don't know what's the reason for that sudden depression.

That's what I feel.

And then i tried hurting myself physically. I thought that maybe, just maybe, the emotional pain can somehow be supressed by the physical pain i'm going to feel. Its quite effective though. Ü..

it SUCKS to fall inlove

2007-09-12T03:58:00.002-07:00

Gosh! I'm sooooooooooooo stupid!!!

I don't know what went wrong or what happened to me.

I just felt like I'm falling...

falling...

falling....
falling.....

falling......
falling for *him*
At first, I wasn’t so sure about it..
But now, just now, things have been clearer to me..
My instincts were right..
I AM already falling for him..

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……..!!!!!!!!!!!

What should I do?! Should I obey my feelings or wait until the feeling subsides?! How can I stop myself from falling deeply inlove?!
Worse, he’s my CLASSMATE!! (there now, I spilled the beans..T.T)

Seeing that I don’t stand a single chance against my rival, which also happens to be his crush (or maybe love..), maybe i ~~should~~
...
wrong..i MUST forget all about this love thingy.
And besides, he only sees me as a friend..nothing more, nothing less..
And I’m already contented in that..for now..

Guys, wish me luck..
Hope this feeling will evaporate real soon.
Feeling desperately and hopelessly inlove (not to mention, wasted..) had long been removed in my dictionary (along with “sorry”, “promise”, “I’m waiting/I’ll wait for you”, “I love you so much”..blah blah blah..for me, they’re pure lies! T.T)
I even swore that I’ll never allow myself to get stuck in this situation again..
But here I am once again, (for the umpteenth time) hangin’ like a fool..

God, falling inlove really sucks..
BIG TIME!!!

But despite all of these stupidity..i still looooooooooooooooooove myself..
Tell you what, I’d rather fall in love over and over again than see myself together with millions of heartless zombies who refuse to fall in love just to play safe..

i hate rattan balls

2007-09-11T05:51:00.002-07:00

We played sepak today...and it sucks. My skills in kicking a stupid rattan ball sucks. I've been practicing it since last week and I still haven't discovered the secrets of kicking it correctly.
The lesson that I have learned today?
Sepak is my biggest frustration! (Well, actually its the second most..next to my hair..=/)

I missed 4 classes today. And i don't regret it. (Haha! COME on..! Give me a break ;p)..We went to a place called GLEE CHEM (what the?! never heard of that freakin' place..) and bought some hexane and ethanol (as in grabe! nakakahilo yung ethanol! adik, pare!). Too bad, we went back early and still got the chance to attend the last class..ugh..

So that's all for this day..Ü
P.S. Joyce & Ken: Congrats! You made it this far..Ü..wishin' you the best..i mean, the BEST!..Ü

the "S" word..

2007-09-01T00:34:00.000-07:00

Lately, I’ve been using the word “STUPID” a couple of times. For instance, when I get irritated in some things (like answering worksheets in chemistry), I’ll just say “stupid worksheet!”…automatically. Haha! Isn’t it..weird? Like, I’ll just say the “S” word without even thinking about it (though I don’t really mean it at times.) Maybe it became my ~~mannerism~~ to say that word…
Wrong…
Sorry…
It’s not just a mannerism. I think it’s an abnormality. Coz I’ve been associating that word to any noun (I mean, any) that pops into my mind. Haha, guess I should control myself because it might get me into trouble. I don’t want to lose friends just because I told them that they’re stupid! (Wait, I don’t mean it okay? Just for the sake of having an example..Ü) On the other side, I want to use it in front of my enemies and to those I dislike just to, you know, insult them to death.

*devilish laugh*

CLEO HATERS [are you one of us?]

2007-08-20T04:37:00.000-07:00

CLEO (noun)

- came from Cleopatra. Yeah, the flirty queen of Egypt.

- a word used to define individuals (most likely, girls) who can ALWAYS be seen flirting with boys (regardless of the looks).

- They come in different shapes and sizes.

-BEWARE: looks can be deceiving. Girls who seem to be passive and conservative can sometimes be cleos too.

grrr..i hate them. They are viruses. Poisons. The reason behind all broken relationships. And once a cleo entered your own "happy ending" love story, your fairytale is doomed to an end. That's the way it is.

But no matter how we try to eliminate them, they just...keep on multiplying..like viruses.

And like viruses, they cannot live on their own. They need hosts. Preferably, men.

And the sad truth? They are the ones who experience a happy-ending story by destroying the would-be happy ending of others. Quite ironic, right?

Yeah, guess i have to admit, i was a victim of their i'm-going-to-make-your-boyfriend-mine strategy. hahahaha. A big red L for my naiveté.

Just a piece of advice for all the cleos out there:

You just can't keep on stealing other people's boyfriends.

Act like women, and not like a cheap girls waiting to be picked up by some goons.

You destroy the essence of femininty, that is, being pure and delicate, the quality of looking and
behaving in ways conventionally thought to be appropriate for a woman or girl.

JUST STOP FLIRTING AROUND AND GET YOUR OWN LIFE!!!

To all the cleo haters out there, i'm encouraging you to join our club [founder:Joyce]

So much for that..

tnx for reading my post..

dont forget to leave your comments..

tOOdLes!! ^__^

happy yet alone..

2007-08-16T19:47:00.000-07:00

2-day suspension..
yeah..great..
at least i can get enough sleep..
hahaha..
we still have tests in chem and journ..(the most stupid subjects..)
i hate them..
what's so special with those subjects?
why do they have to separate their schedules from others?!?!
arrrggg..!!

anyway..
lets just change the topic..

its been a while since i last felt this feeling..
the feeling of being happy yet alone..
i just wish i have someone whom i could share this happiness with..
*sigh*
so that's all..
=/

pressure...stress...tests...low grades...shit...T.T

2007-08-12T01:58:00.000-07:00

waahhh..andming ggwin...huhu...mxado nq nsstress..nkkpressure..!! anyway, mgppbroadband n kme nxt wik kya mas mrmi nqng mpopost s blog q...4 now, aral muna..hai..ge, gudluck sken..go, go go,...T.T

hello! Ü

2007-08-08T23:23:00.000-07:00

wii, sa wakas..nkgwa n rin aq ng blog q..^__^
anyway, s lht ng mgbbasa ng mga posts q in the future, iwan n rin kau ng comments..
ahm..
un mga ipopost q d2, kdlasan mga sentiments ko s buhay..
mron dn nmng mga kakaibang nangyre sken..
or spexal events na nangyre..
chka mga kalungqtan q s buhay..Ü
kya pgpsenxahan nio nlng..
kung ndi nio ngus2han, wg nio nlng bsahin..
hehe...Ü
un lang..
tOodLeS..!! ^__^