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I've been VERY busy this week so i wasn't able to update my blog. A lot of things happened actually, but due to hectic schedules and jingle rehearsals, i wasn't able to share it with you. It just so happens that we didn't have practice today so i immediately grabbed the chance to make a new post in my blog.



Events that happened or will happen this week (or maybe last week, can't remember.)

*drum rolls please...*



MSHS Chorale won 2nd runner-up in U.P. Musikapella last Sunday.

- A big round of applause for the choir! Though we heard some people at the back say "we don't even know you..." HAH! As if WE know YOU!!! As for us, we already made a name last Sunday..too bad, YOUR school remains UNKNOWN..hahahahaha!!!



Science Jingle Practices

- This is the most challenging and most tiring of all. Just last week, we composed songs about science clubbing (theme is, science clubbing towards a more science-conscious citizenry.) and made various dance steps. It was hard. With all the lessons we still have to study at home and tons of homeworks, we really had a hard time scheduling practices for the jingle. We just hope we'll win this contest in Friday. T.T



Open-forum (exclusive for Feynman students only)

- This proved to be veeeeeeeeeeeeeery dramatic. I didn't expect that some of the boys will cry during the open-forum. I also cried. But after that, things went pretty well. I can say that we already created a friendship worth keeping. Ü



I slashed my wrists

- Don't ask me why. I'm depressed. And I didn't slashed my wrists just to get other people's attention. I'm not that STUPID. For those who wonder WHY i did it, well, here's my side.

Ever felt like you're crushed, emotionally and mentally? Like everything inside you hurts so badly and you can't do anything to make the pain go away? Worse, you don't know what's the reason for that sudden depression.

That's what I feel.

And then i tried hurting myself physically. I thought that maybe, just maybe, the emotional pain can somehow be supressed by the physical pain i'm going to feel. Its quite effective though. Ü..

it SUCKS to fall inlove

Gosh! I'm sooooooooooooo stupid!!!

I don't know what went wrong or what happened to me.

I just felt like I'm falling...

falling...

falling....
falling.....

falling......
falling for *him*
At first, I wasn’t so sure about it..
But now, just now, things have been clearer to me..
My instincts were right..
I AM already falling for him..

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……..!!!!!!!!!!!

What should I do?! Should I obey my feelings or wait until the feeling subsides?! How can I stop myself from falling deeply inlove?!
Worse, he’s my CLASSMATE!! (there now, I spilled the beans..T.T)

Seeing that I don’t stand a single chance against my rival, which also happens to be his crush (or maybe love..), maybe i should
...
wrong..i MUST forget all about this love thingy.
And besides, he only sees me as a friend..nothing more, nothing less..
And I’m already contented in that..for now..

Guys, wish me luck..
Hope this feeling will evaporate real soon.
Feeling desperately and hopelessly inlove (not to mention, wasted..) had long been removed in my dictionary (along with “sorry”, “promise”, “I’m waiting/I’ll wait for you”, “I love you so much”..blah blah blah..for me, they’re pure lies! T.T)
I even swore that I’ll never allow myself to get stuck in this situation again..
But here I am once again, (for the umpteenth time) hangin’ like a fool..

God, falling inlove really sucks..
BIG TIME!!!

But despite all of these stupidity..i still looooooooooooooooooove myself..
Tell you what, I’d rather fall in love over and over again than see myself together with millions of heartless zombies who refuse to fall in love just to play safe..

i hate rattan balls

We played sepak today...and it sucks. My skills in kicking a stupid rattan ball sucks. I've been practicing it since last week and I still haven't discovered the secrets of kicking it correctly.
The lesson that I have learned today?
Sepak is my biggest frustration! (Well, actually its the second most..next to my hair..=/)

I missed 4 classes today. And i don't regret it. (Haha! COME on..! Give me a break ;p)..We went to a place called GLEE CHEM (what the?! never heard of that freakin' place..) and bought some hexane and ethanol (as in grabe! nakakahilo yung ethanol! adik, pare!). Too bad, we went back early and still got the chance to attend the last class..ugh..

So that's all for this day..Ü
P.S. Joyce & Ken: Congrats! You made it this far..Ü..wishin' you the best..i mean, the BEST!..Ü

the "S" word..

Lately, I’ve been using the word “STUPID” a couple of times. For instance, when I get irritated in some things (like answering worksheets in chemistry), I’ll just say “stupid worksheet!”…automatically. Haha! Isn’t it..weird? Like, I’ll just say the “S” word without even thinking about it (though I don’t really mean it at times.) Maybe it became my mannerism to say that word…
Wrong…
Sorry…
It’s not just a mannerism. I think it’s an abnormality. Coz I’ve been associating that word to any noun (I mean, any) that pops into my mind. Haha, guess I should control myself because it might get me into trouble. I don’t want to lose friends just because I told them that they’re stupid! (Wait, I don’t mean it okay? Just for the sake of having an example..Ü) On the other side, I want to use it in front of my enemies and to those I dislike just to, you know, insult them to death.

*devilish laugh*